Gone

Gone
so completely
like a vapor
as if never here
my heart still remembers
soul that aches for you
memories are all that are left
still remember the pained tears
all the wasted years
no true closure
not completely
Gone

Once

Once, when I was less
than what I am today
I let myself think
that it was just okay

The choices that were made
once, when I was clouded
and the wisdom I once had
was dark and shrouded

Down the path
to be deceived
my own version of the truth
I then believed

To almost lose it all
throw everything away
a decision based on lies
once, when I was less than what I am today

Promise

There is no promise of tomorrow
no guarantee of another day
nothing to assure a life lived longer
no promise one can have

Yesterday is gone past now dead
those things mean nothing now
forgotten pains worthless hurts
now past away into shadow

Tomorrow not promised not even here
no need to worry or to fret
nothing one can do about what is not here yet
something that is only a possibility

There is only today only this moment
everything else means little
one promise only to live in this day
for it is all we truly have

Stronger

The past serves only one purpose, to make you stronger
to learn and move on
to let go and grow
to never look back always forward

Those who hurt you only serve to make you stronger
every lie and betrayal
every unkind word and deed
every fresh stab of the knife
only gives you strength

There is no life living in the past
dwelling on things gone and meaningless
there is only what’s ahead
the future and what you make of it

No need to live in constant blame
to reopen the wounds of the past
they are gone and done
and you can now choose to live stronger

Edges

Somehow the past remains at the edges
lapping against the mind as waves upon the sand
taking a bit here and a bit there leaving no trace
and yet you feel it there a shadow and a thought

You believe that you’ve moved beyond the past
that regret is not something you live with
but at the edges its cold and icy fingers reach in
and you can barely feel it

You work to stay in the center avoiding the dark edges
keeping the shadows of what was out of the what is
pushing down the memories pushing back on the waves
always reconstructing the wall

The memories they whisper they brush at your mind
each one growing fainter and yet the icy touch still there
time to push back move away towards the center
live as if they don’t exist

Shadows

And lo though I walk through this life with no regret

the shadows they follow me still

the past is gone but unforgotten as yet

it lingers at the corners against my will

 

And lo though I walk knowing it is better now

the stitches of the wounds remain

to completely erase rewind forget somehow

these things I cannot yet attain

 

And lo though I walk in love and light

the darkness that once was creeps in and out

even though I resist with all my might

just  a little twinge just a little doubt

 

And lo though I walk renewed and stronger

the shadows remain just out of reach

wishing them gone to be here no longer

but there are still lessons they must teach